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Sunday, 04 May 2008

  • So...it has been what 3 months...but hey who is counting.

    Well, to update and not take 10 years to do it I will make it a short version.

    January - Left school
                   Moved to Omaha
                   Started looking for a job
                   Have been dating my friend for about 4 months at this point (and yes she is a girl) I LOVE HER
                   Relying on my parents for my income

    February - Still out of school
                      Still looking for a job
                      Celebrated Valentine's Day with someone special!

    March - Visited my dad in Oklahoma (my lover came with me)
                  Came back and was still looking for a job
                  The money thing was still in my parents' hands

    April - Celebrated my 6 month ann. with my lover
                Finally got an interview for a job
                Got the job
                
    May - Am now living in an apt.
              Working at Boystown
               Still in love


    So ya that is pretty much it in a nutshell. Enjoy. Anything I missed...must not have been that important.


    Kisses!

    I'm out!  

Wednesday, 23 January 2008

  • Currently Watching
    Never Been Kissed
    By Drew Barrymore, Michael Vartan, David Arquette, Molly Shannon, Leelee Sobieski
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    And...I am spent.





    Yep. That is pretty much all I have to say at the moment. I am at a loss for words.






    Will miss everyone. But I won't be far away. Come visit anytime you like.



    LOVE!

Tuesday, 22 January 2008

  • Currently Listening
    One Cell In the Sea
    By A Fine Frenzy
    Almost Lover
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    Patience: an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay.

    Patience is not a virtue I possess at the moment. I have yet to hear from someone that holds my future in their hands. The fact that they have that kind of power frightens me. I prayed today, for the first time in such a long time. I am hoping it helped. To pray and ask for prayers is something I don't usually do. But in this case, I think it's necessary.

    So here I sit, watching Food Network, updating my xanga, and thinking in my mind, "man I really need a drink." In other news, which really isn't any more exciting, my birthday is on Thursday. I will be spending it babysitting the cutest boys on the planet. Yay! Cake, Ice cream, 2 boys, and Spongebob! O ya. Good times. I would love to do something on Fri. or this weekend sometime. So if anyone is free to go out for a drink or something call me up. Nothing big just a laid back affair is cool with me.

    For those of you that have been with me through this whole ordeal, THANK YOU SO MUCH! It will all be over soon. Once I hear the results. So until then keep your fingers crossed. Maybe even your legs too. O and maybe your eyes. I need all the help I can get.

    Smooches and Hugs to all!

Wednesday, 09 January 2008

  • Currently Listening
    REO Speedwagon - The Hits
    By Reo Speedwagon
    Roll with the changes
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    NEW YEAR!?

    What will it bring...love or heartache, joy or sadness, friends or enemies?

    A new year always means starting over, having a clean slate. There is no such thing as a clean slate in this world. No matter how much you try moving on to a new year just brings along the joys and sorrows of the past year. I have some big changes coming up in my life really soon. Am I ready for them? Hell NO! But I need to grow up and take responsibility for my actions. "Welcome to the real world Crystal! Get used to it." My Dad told me this is the last phone conversation we had. He's right, I need to realize that I am no longer a kid, teenager, even young adult. I AM AN ADULT NOW! Time to be one.

    I hope all of you have a good start to your year. Start off strong, and don't let yourself get run down, because if you do, you will grow weaker and weaker until December comes around and you have nothing left. Take it from someone who knows. Have a good week.



Friday, 30 November 2007

  • Currently Watching
    The Covenant
    By Steven Strait, Laura Ramsey, Sebastian Stan, Taylor Kitsch, Chace Crawford
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    So....here we are...

    I have come to the conclusion that everything utterly sucks right now. Everything...I have been tossing and turning every night for the past 2 weeks, trying to figure out what it is that is bothering me. I can't seem to figure it out exactly. I had an in depth conversation with a friend last night and realized some things about myself that I had never realized before. Things that explain the way I am and the way I have been for these past 22 years of my life. Reading books and talking to people about things doesn't seem to be helping. I try and try but it just keeps coming back. And what really sucks...I don't even know what "it" is! Grr...

    So until then, I will try my hardest to make the best of what I have left. Wish me luck with these last 2 weeks. And uh...if anyone has a pooper scooper handy I may need it. I have seemed to successfully buried myself in a deep hole of shit, and have no shovel to get me out.

    Have a good week everyone. Keep strong, Keep safe, Keep yourself. That is something my Grandma always used to say. Didn't make much sense until now.